Tagged lulz

By both Lweez and Adam.

The Meme:
Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose six people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave a comment (“You’re tagged!”), and to read your blog, you can’t tag a person who tagged you. Since you can’t tag me, let me know when you've posted your blog, so I can see your weirdness.

1. I obsess to much about rugby

2. I have a fluctuating ego, it goes high and it goes low all the time.

3. My faith in humanity is very low, hence I am easily joyed by other's accomplishments (bad experience in the past)

4. I am still recovering from a bad relationship way back in the past

5. I rarely share my sad feelings, my happy feelings however, I love to share

6. I enjoy when other's enjoy themselves.

7. Gaming used to be a bigger part of my life than it is today.
8. I have this obsession with making money, I have no real goal other than to make lots of money and sit on it.

9. My views on certain things are considered strange by some

10. I lack a sense of humour

11. I am rather indecisive and also tend to change my opinion on things alot

12. I believe myself to be open minded even though I may not be

13. I believe people have more faith in me than they should

14. I am a major nerd 

15. I used to post on forums alot, now I keep forgetting to (see: getting older)

16. My mind wanders from thinking everyone is a total idiot or geniuses, it's negative and positive that way

Tagging:
Nadia
Azzief
Rezal
Aunty Najwa :P
Naomi
And hanaan x)

My Dream Their Reality

I sit there, merely giving them the briefests of acknowledgements as they speak their own language. Not once do I say that I do not understand them, that I do not understand their sharp words that are aimed at me. I merely allow them their fun, for what is life without fun. I smile and pay for my food and I am off, excusing myself with sweet words to allow them to enjoy themselves in their merrymaking.

I arrive at my place, sit back and think. For that is all I have left to myself these days and nights. For better or for worse I have come to a place where many roads lie before me and I have willingly chosen the one with more peril but promises most gain. Every step I take brings me ever closer to the limits of my sanity, my saving grace lies no more within the material world for that is I, one who holds nothing dear any longer. 

Many a day I have come to my study where I have no more left in me to smile, and those around me show their concern. Though my heart knows their concern is true my mind corrupts it as trust becomes rarer and rarer to place. Never before have I faltered in placing my trust but as it is, I may soon loose faith in more things than was ever thought possible.

Many times I have opted to go seperate ways when I was in the company of the people I know. They see me sit down and write, and though in reality I just needed to escape from the confines of their norm, I bait them to believe I am busy as not to hurt their feelings. I feel myself losing my grip on myself, as if I no longer even know who I am.

These problems tear at my very being day in and day out but I keep hoping to myself I'd cure myself of this sad state of depression. May those who it may concern in these blog never figure out it is they that I speak of.