The world I am talking about today is the world as seen by teenagers, where each of us are as if confined to our own little world surrounded by members of our collective clique where nothing you ever did was wrong, nobody would bother to take the time to look at you apart from your friends, and nobody wanted to lead you away from this madness.
Oh my, I seem to sound angsty, I apologize that is not at all my intention. That was merely a way to start things off. My life is a rather interesting one as you may see. I hope you may apologize as I may have dramatized it a bit.
Alright, let me begin from the years I was in pre-school. My pre-school life was a very odd time when we were first taught to use computers, we got into pitiful fights with each other over the silliest of things but that was the life back then. No divisions between the smarts the dumbs, the hots the nots. Of course, that was pre-school. If life stayed that simple there wouldn't be war.
Of course, pre-school won't last forever and before I knew it I was forced to primary. Jeez, I remember the first few months like it was yesterday. Clinging on to my mom's car even as it started moving, causing a fuss so that all the teachers would get pissed and all the stuff kids would love to do. Of course that couldn't go on forever and I stopped being such a little bastard after awhile. My teachers found a way to control me which I never found out what, but I do remember being an unnecesary dick in my early primary days. I even told teacher that doing their homework was boring because it wasn't challening. Oh if only I could say that about my homework these days. Haih.
In primary, especially as I got older, I was an unnecesarily angry kid. I guess my brain must have matured faster or I wasn't just able to control my emotions, but I almost committed suicide and attacked fellow students when I was younger. All of it was provoked of course , but looking back, if the things that provoked me then were to happen to me now, I wouldnt even take notice. My oh my, my youth was embarassing.
Of course, primary is never complete without monkey love. I did have people I was in to back in my youth but it never came to fruitation. Didn't have the balls then. Still don't have the balls today.
Damn, I seem to have drifted from the topic at hand, It is here during the primary school days that the rifts start forming, different groups all hanging together. Here however, I was still comfortable, because I grew up with many of them and I could count on them. I didn't have many friends back in those days but the one's I did have I cherish till today.
End part 1
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